While I'm Waiting

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

The words written above could not be more fitting for me right now.  My last post was so hard to write, but in the pain God has been there.  We've received encouragement from our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ - particularly the ones who truly know adoption - in such meaningful ways.  Has anything changed in the status of our adoption since then? No.  Are we still waiting? Yes.  Am I hopeful.  Definitely.  Is it painful? Indescribably so.

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

Bold and confident.  No one ever said the adoption journey would be easy.  We even had many people try to convince us it would be too hard, that is wasn't worth it.  I have and continue to confront very real spiritual attacks of self-doubt.  But we've continued to move ahead.  Completing all of the steps necessary to move forward.  Trusting in God's plan for our family.  Following this plan in obedience.

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

Life doesn't stop while we wait.  I will continue to serve Him.  I have worshipped through tears of desperation and tears of joy.  We have not given up, we are still doing real life.

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I am deliberately choosing to praise God for being by my side through this waiting.  He knows my raw emotions and He has never left me.  He has shown up in the smallest of ways and He has been there in unfathomable ways.  He knows it's not easy.  He's given me peace.  

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

I could never have imagined the ways He would allow me to serve him while in this wait.  The wait has increased my passion to serve and given me unique opportunities to share my own testimony.  My faith has grown and been stretched in new ways.  I cannot help but to worship Him.  Yes, I will wait.

Thank you, Lord, for being there every step of the way.  Thank you, Lord, for drawing us to a church who has many other adoptive families who have become a support network we could not have known we needed and now could not imagine life without that support.  Thank you, Lord, for our sister church in the DR who have been a profound blessing.  Thank you, Lord, for dear coworkers who have become great encouragers - including the one who reminded me of this song.  And, as painful as it is, thank you for the waiting.